I’ve been considering breaking up with my girlfriend for a while, but I chose to not think about it until after our trip to Ireland. Well, halfway through, she randomly asked me if I thought we were going to be together forever. I had no idea what to say. She read right through my hesitation and, well... long story short, she knows how I feel and I’ve successfully ruined her vacation. I don’t know what to do.
Especially since we live together and she’s going to stay with me indefinitely. The only alternative would be to go live with her abusive, alcoholic mother. I still love her tons and I can’t do that to her.
I just wish I hadn’t waited nearly 3 years. I’ve been uncertain since just a few months after we started dating, but I kept telling myself that I have to keep giving her a chance. The last thing I wanted to do was break her heart. But it’s been so difficult to stay by her through her almost daily mental breakdowns. She needs to get better, for her own sake mostly, but also to take the emotional toll off of me. I can’t be the only one for her to lean on. It’s too much for me.
I know I’m just going in circles here, but that’s just because I’m just typing out my thoughts. I need space, but she deserves someone and she has no one else. I don’t know what to do.